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Post by Severus Snape on Sept 10, 2007 0:45:04 GMT -5
"Great time to start listening to what your friends have to say about people, huh." he said, obviously sour. He couldn't help but lean his head in a bit at her as he spoke, his chin julting out slightly at the end. He couldn't help it. Not that her never listening to what her friends said about Severus was against his favor, he was just surprised at the...way everything seemed so backwards suddenly. "And since when...does an..." resisting strong cuss words, " -a bully like that deserve any kind of chance after siiix. yeeears. of nothing. but...." he spoke through his teeth trying to hold his own emotion as disgust and not letting it sleep into obvious anger. "What if it were you, Lily? What if I decided to suddently get all close to people who've hated you most? Preparing for you to be off with Marlene or other friends of yours as I had to sit and wait my turn for a smile, or wave that would be coming my way once a week, if I'm lucky, that. I was ready for that. Now that it's the one person who just- ugh. He-. As I'm being pushed to the buttom of the list while having to watch you prance around with him...that's just...so...fucked. up." turning away, his hand covering half his face then pushing back his hair.
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Post by Lily Evans on Sept 10, 2007 0:51:34 GMT -5
"You're not being pushed to the bottom of any bloody list!" She said, her temper getting the better of her. "You're still my best friend! The longest friendship I ever had! You're acting as if I'll go and run off with the bloke and get married! Are you saying that he doesn't deserve a chance!? That he doesn't deserve my attention!? Well, that's funny, because that's the exact same thing that my friends and I thought of YOU! When you called me a MUDBLOOD! But, I TOOK YOU BACK! I'm giving Potter the chance to show me that I'm not just another notch! Just like I'm giving you the chance to show that you didn't mean what you said to me! God DAMMIT, Severus!"
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Post by Severus Snape on Sept 10, 2007 1:06:15 GMT -5
Immediatly talking again, speaking over her 'dammit'. "First off I made one slip there- Potter's been an absobloodylute nightmare for six years!" the term getting old now, having to stress it over and over. He took her hand in both of his as he went on with his next sentence, his voice soft and gentle, bending his knees with each stressed word. "Lily, I believe that you deserve to be loved and cared for and be looked after and be [waited on[/i] by someone who can give you that attention and I would never hold you back from your teenage dating experamental years- it's just- You know. I-" letting her hand go now and taking a step back, neviously switching his weight to each foot back and forth. "Go. Please. Flirt, have fun." putting his hands out infront of him, as if pushing her to go do it. "What I'm afraid of is that when you and Potter get a little more serious, if it were to ever happen, issues are going to raise, and the moment he says or does something to me as he never fails to- you're going to stop time and think things over- Do I defend my friend and risk having this guy I like get upset with me leading to arguments and to breakdowns and worse things and- Lily. I-...I don't want to cause any trouble between you and someone you like. But then if you go a different direction and just deal with the two of us not getting along, in sack to keep your relationship from hitting any lightening through the flight, I am going to- I will- You'll..." recollecting himself from the rush. "I'm honestly afraid that when that happens I will move down your list, noticed or not, on purpose or not, and my importance to you will just got lower and lower, and soon I would be completely invisable."
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Post by Lily Evans on Sept 10, 2007 14:24:07 GMT -5
Lily moved away from Severus, his words going through her light a knife. She turned away, her shoulders hunched and arms crossed, as if hoping that she would be able to internally collapse, disappearing from her spot. How could he think that of her? Did all their years of friendship mean nothing? Did Lily taking him back, even after what he had called her, mean nothing? Was he really going to doubt her loyalty to him just over some other guy? "Am I such a lowly person to you, that you must think that it is even conceivable that I would do that to you? We've been friends... for years... and you think I would throw it all away... just because of a stupid boy? You think that by dating James Potter, I would just... change my opinion of you? You don't think it's possible that I've asked him to not harass you in my presence? It... it really hurts, Sev. It hurts that you think that I would put my friend below my boyfriend. I'm not asking for your blessing, Sev. Hell, I'm not asking you to do or be anything! You don't have to be friends with him, or hang out with him. I just--... I don't want you to hate me, Sev. Just because of this guy," She resisted turning towards him, not wanting him to see her eyes, red with unshed tears. "And that's what it seems like. Like you hate me."
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Post by Severus Snape on Sept 10, 2007 18:49:08 GMT -5
"I just need to know that won't happen. I'll... Lily, maybe it's silly but whenever you did start to date I had hoped it would be someone I'd get along with. I guess I'm just trying to be a big brother here. I'm sorry if I'm over reacting..." taking some steps towards her. "I don't hate you, Lily. I just don't want you to hate me."
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Post by Lily Evans on Sept 10, 2007 18:52:33 GMT -5
"... You never liked any of my boyfriends," She still didn't turn to face him. "Wizards or Muggles. I don't know what you're trying to be, but you've got to let me grow up! And get hurt! I might get hurt with Potter, and I might end up with tears. But that's when I'll need you the most, to help with the tears. Not start them."
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Post by Severus Snape on Sept 10, 2007 19:09:26 GMT -5
"Okay, Lily." backing up as she raised her voice. His tone was confused and gentle and just trying to calm her down. "I...I can't help but to only not want to see you get hurt. I don't. I-I know you've got to...to talk the good with the bad, and if you don't take risks you miss out on the experiance, I just don't want you to get hurt at all. I hate worrying about you... I'm just... I care too much about you to watch you get worked up and hurt by some guy, you know."
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Post by Lily Evans on Sept 10, 2007 19:16:41 GMT -5
"I know you do," She wiped her eyes with her hand. "And trust me, if Potter hurts me, you'll be the first one I'll tell. And you'll have full rights to hex him within an inch of his life," She paused. "... if I haven't done it already, that is."
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Post by Severus Snape on Sept 10, 2007 19:32:31 GMT -5
"Heh...right." with a nod as he clutched the back of his neck with his right hand. "So um....how...like, are you two just...?" he wanted to ask how serious they really were, but he couldn't exactly form the words.
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Post by Lily Evans on Sept 10, 2007 19:35:28 GMT -5
"We've haven't... been on a date, yet," She told him, turning around finally. "I want to take it slow. And he said he'd respect my wishes." Did he? Looking back, Lily didn't remember ever telling James that she wanted to take it slow. But if it helped soothe Severus... "So that was rather nice of him, I suppose."
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Post by Severus Snape on Sept 10, 2007 19:37:48 GMT -5
"Yeah, as long as he does." he nodded agreeing. "Well...alright then, I'm sorry I got so worked up." with a shrug. "I pretty much ruined the nice walk we were trying to have."
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Post by Lily Evans on Sept 10, 2007 19:39:51 GMT -5
"We can still walk... if you want," She motioned to the path in front of them. "I don't have my next class for an hour or so."
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Post by Severus Snape on Sept 10, 2007 19:44:48 GMT -5
"Yeah um...if you weren't going anywhere, cause I'm...I'm not doing...anything really. I could...walk you to where ever your going or... Um..."
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Post by Lily Evans on Sept 10, 2007 19:52:50 GMT -5
"Let's walk," She shrugged. She began to walk, looking behind her to see if Severus would follow her. "So... anything going on?"
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Post by Severus Snape on Sept 17, 2007 15:55:31 GMT -5
He shook his head, crossing his arms loosly infront of him as he walked with her. "No..." he replied quietly. He couldn't help but feel completely awkward to the quick change in subject, after a conversation like that. "Everything's just...homework and...yeah."
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